Jan 24, 2016

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The ONE Reason I’ll Never go to a Free Workout Session

I’m the fat girl

never go to a free workout

I know. I’m not that fat and could be bigger. i have a shape. Blah blah. One day, I’ll show you just how fat I really was. One day.

That pretty much sums it up.

Don’t come spouting your body positive ideals, and your “you’re not even that big” nonsense. Just hear me out.

As a blogger, especially living in body conscious Boston, I am offered many opportunities to attend free spinning classes. Free barre classes. Free Trillfit. Free hot yoga. All with the opportunity to meet new people, try a new workout I’m sure I’ll love, and various other perks I won’t be able to list because I’ve never been to a single one.

Not a single class. And trust me, I’ve gotten the email blasts, or the other friendly blogger asking me to join her. I politely decline every invitation.

Because I’m fat.

See, it’s a catch 22. I’m fat and I want to workout. But I don’t want to be embarrassed by trying to huff and puff my way through a spin class, a butt cheek hanging off each side, while next to a gorgeous, athletic blonde super goddess.

Can you just imagine me trying to downward dog in front of some Lulu Lemon wearing, juice cleansing brunette? Yeah, no thank you!

How about at barre class next to a lithe redhead, as I groan through pliès, and grab my ankle to throw my leg on the bar to stretch?

Body confidence my ass.

I have gone from a size 20/22 to a size 14/16. I am proud of myself everyday as I continue to struggle through weight loss. There are days when I love how I feel and how I look. There are days when I want to take a knife and cut off every inch of flab from my stomach, arms and back.

I won’t sabotage myself by going to one of these classes. I would loooove to try something new and push myself. But unless this is the beginner beginner class, as in the “I haven’t exercised in years and need to take this very slow and not embarrass myself” class (described beautifully by my like-minded aunt), I will not be going.




  1. I totally hear what you’re saying and have thought the same thing.

    I’m a size 16 so I’m usually one of the bigger women in the fitness classes I take.

    But you know what?! No one judges!

    The free classes are a great way to try out a new workout and you may find something that works for you that you wouldn’t have thought to try on your own.

    I found BollyX dance fitness through a free class and I LOVE it! It’s so much fun that it only feels like working out the next day when my muscles are sore.

    If you ever want assurance that you will not be the biggest girl in the room, let me know about a free class you want to try and I’ll join you.

    I’m going to be at Trillfit on the 31st.
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    • Danielle, I appreciate you saying this to me! I may very well take you up on your offer to go to a class with you because I would like to take myself out of my fearful little box. Added bonus is someone who understands where I’m coming from!

      P.S. You are an amazing person for offering such support to someone you don’t know (yet). I’ll be reaching out to you soon so we can try a class together.

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